I love too much

that's why I can't take it. Game 5 is devastating... I won't be able to forget it... I don't know why Wheeler was left in... I just don't. I can see one big mistake happening. I can see Balfour throwing 97 mph to ortiz and he just hits it good... but why 4 more runs? Where is David Price? Where is David Price? Where is David Price? Did he ask to not play? Did he casually tell Maddon that he was nervous one day at lunch? Does Maddon see fear in the boy's face? What did Maddon see in Wheeler's face on Thursday night? Just how many games does BOSSMAN have to hit a home run in the 1st inning? Why wasn't Kaz throwing sliders, again? 

Game 6, and I never saw it... didn't even get to see BOSSMAN's home run thanks to TBS... Why call for hit and run with our slowest runner on 1st, and our 9th hitter at the plate? I'll give them varitek since we got Bartlett.... didn't we used to be able to manufacture runs? SO we must do it again, against Lester? WHy? Why was Wheeler left in? If  Thursday morning, Maddon was told that we would lose a Game 6 by the Angel Gabriel, would he have taken Wheeler out before Drew steps to the plate? 

Are the Red Sox just that good? If they are that good, why did they let us destroy them on their home turf 2 days in a row? So are they really that good? Why does JD Drew hit good now? 

It feels like being in love with someone, and them not loving you back. except for BOSSMAN and Kaz, who can crash at my place any time... and Price, since I don't even know him yet.  my friends all say he's the coolest, but whenever I invite him to a sweet party, he's got other plans... and yet I still want to be buds with him. I still feel like I'm the one missing out. 

I have never followed any team as closely as this one. This has been years coming... since 02 I guess. The Pirates selected Bryan Bullington and the Rays took this BOSSMAN Upton guy. 

Games 3 & 4 feel like months ago, or even some other season. Why all those runs, and then the Red Sox have won by 2, 1, and 2. ?